Rather fuck a duck...

...than an Douchebag!

 

Another dating, story told in graphic illustration:

Happens to me every time...

I can't believe I fall for it every single time no matter how many times it's happened before! I don't think I'll ever learn or not hope for once I've found a real catch and we obviously can't teach men how not to effect us like this.. So let's say a guy hasn't msg'd or been around for a few days leaving you wondering if he's moved as he certainly hasn't been thinking of you like you have been him.. then finally sends a text with:

What are you up to tonight?

I, or let's just say the girl, always reads this as if it says:

Sorry I've been busy, babe, but I intend to make it up to you. What are you doing tonight?

When what he's saying is nothing of the sort. In fact, he thinks he's is totally being cool and considerate by out of the blue engaging her with totally meaningless idle chit chat. Whatever you are up to that evening is of no real concern to him whatsoever as he's just hoping to engage her in a conversation on any sort of random topic that's NOT what he has been up to nor what he's actually doing himself that evening but he knows if he doesn't text her at all a 3rd night in a row she will certainly question his modus operandi as she'll want to know why he hasn't checked in. "What are you up to tonight?" isn't a date proposal as she delights in the notion of, he already has plans and he hoped that she has some herself by now so she's the one who's got a problem with fomo. She however has awaited this feeling of alas a lawless victory! So she responds with something cheerful and casual yet assumes the prize is in her bag:

Going crazy.. wanting to see you! Come watch that movie or do that thing you said earlier we'd do sometime this week and you have to work the rest of it other than tonight, right?

....

No response for a couple hours as he struggles with how he can possibly tell her the truth is he made plans with his bros he works with and sees every other day of the week on his one night off instead of meaning what he said he'd do. He simply though saying it would placate her and she'd get bored I guess and find someone else to help her with the task she only asked him to help her with as an excuse to spend some time being sweet to him.. Meanwhile she has proceeded to get into the shower or start making them both dinner or tidying up in prep for his imminent arrival he's only waiting to determine which bus he can catch before giving her an accurate eta... He responds off topic trying to turn that tactic into an 0 for 3 as successful stalling.

What time is your thing tomorrow?

9ish.

I'll try to make it but I have to switch my shift at work. 

 ....

 

You're not coming over tonight are you?

No...

Now she feels worse than she would have if she hadn't even heard from him instead of being lifted by her wishes, hopes, and spoken promises... and then dropped back down to Earth causing another crack to appear in her heart.

True Love and the one that got away.. the story of my Parents

  I seldom tell this story because it's a rather long story as far as what can typically hold most people's attention involuntary. I save it for the people who randomly happen to know enough about me to be intrigued as to my upbringing. As a Gemini rising, I'm all about dichotomy. I'm very humble, rational, realistic, and grounded yet a total fucking princess spoiled brat who will probably never live up to her fantastical expectations. It's very rare but it happened tonight that a friend asked me about my parents. My parents are not only still married but they have the most romantic fairy tale meant to be love story! It's priceless!! Yet as amazing as it may be it makes me feel cursed.. because I have such an incredible thing to live up to. Especially now me being well past the age my parents were when they had me which was 5 whole years after they married mind you and yet I'm still single. I feel utterly disparaged yet never ungrateful nor undetermined because I know something majestically magical brought me into this world. Despite being born so unreasonably premature I would never have made it without a (incubator or some other) mix of medicine & hyper modern machinery, there's no doubt that the Fates gave their blessing. The story is pretty fucking amazing and will never cease to bring a tear to my eye and a flutter to even the most callous of cold hearts because that is our nature as humans beings to believe all our fantasies will eventually become our reality. Who am I to say nay.. I say, "yea, so mote it be!"

mom and dad dating

  So my mom's high school sweetheart of several years was as many years her senior and upon her graduation from high school he finished college and accepted a job in another state. So for whatever was the reason which was a highly evolved decision they agreed to being able to see other people the first year. My mom took a job as a switch board operator she and a girlfriend interviewed for together in a downtown building in Atlanta with a different company occupying each floor full of young adults eager to explore the possible social prospects to be found in the onsite lunchtime cafeteria. My mom's friend was a butterfly always chatting with anyone willing to receive and talking about her most recent dating experience, offering to set my mother up as soon as she was remotely interested.

I think they're still happy together

  Well my mother had in fact run into this one fair man and had her eyes kept on the lookout for him ever since. She had determined at this point which company or which floor he worked on so she agreed to be set up on a blind date with him. Twice she was horribly disappointed to discover her date of choice was in fact not my dad before she finally managed to get the right man. Instantly smitten they both were and within months dad offered her his fraternity pen (akin to a promise/class ring, or varsity jacket etc). My grandmother and family were concerned about this new development and called her high school sweetheart to warn him. So when Christmas came around he showed up secretly unannounced with a ring and proposed her hand in marriage. So my mom accepted her high school sweetheart and broke my father's heart and moved on to spend years with a suspected womanizer.

still love bugs 45 years later

  5 years later after finding proof of her husband's infidelity she left and moved back to Atlanta and got her own apartment and a new job downtown. Somehow within the first year she came across a Georgia Tech alumni directory from one of my dad's fraternal brothers. Immediately she looked up my father's name and called him at his home in Cincinnati. He told her he was happily married and had a little girl named Cynthia Gail (my mother goes by Gail.. oh and it was the rebound girl he managed to get pregnant so my dad being the most honorable father I've ever known did "the right thing" and married her) Disappointed in that oh so familiar notion that poems and songs were written "give all I've got for just one more shot at the one that got away" my mother gave her blessings and a blessed be.

me with my big sister at Tetons national park

  6 months later.. My father calls and says he and his wife have separated and were getting a divorce and he had a airline ticket for that weekend for her to come visit. They've been together ever since ~ 43 years now! Not a day passes that I will accept nothing less will happen someday for me, unfortunately or thankfully yet remains to be seen. I have faith that none can ever take from me and the heart of a mystic indigo child that bears the promise and a key of days to come with nothing left but peace as we lay our burdens down for love and harmony or death. Whatever may be we will receive, yea, we will receive.

mom, dad, my sister Cindi, her husband Art, and their children plus me, the black sheep... in 2006

eBay SCAM: The Tesla Shield by Life Technology

 In my pursuit to find a product that I can cheaply manufacture, that incorporates both my love of crystals and semiprecious gemstones with my artistic drive and sincere will to provide people with a service and product that resonates positively with me and my moral compass I stumbled upon orgone energy and what is known as orgonite. An orgonite is essentially just metal shavings and quartz floating in an epoxy mold along with other materials added to enhance the beauty and intentions of the piece chosen as chosen by it's creator. I am in the process of researching extensively both the marketability of the product and the scientific claims that this fun little craft project actually results in a device that absorbs negative electromagnetic radiation that is supposedly harmful to the human body so that by having one of these devices in your home (coffee table center piece usually in the  shape of a pyramid) or wearing or carrying a smaller one (can be made into a beautiful pendant piece or keychain) creates a vortex of positive energy that aids in mental stability and harmonic health conditions. I will not knowingly propogate another bullshit claim of "healing" and attempt to profit on the modern new age frenzy that hundreds if not thousands of other business savy website designers and con artists getting rich off of the general ignorance and gullibility  of so many new age enthusiast and the fact that the most thoroughly tested and absolutely undoubtably proven effective medicine available on the planet is the placebo effect. I personally am not so ignorant and I personally believe in karma therefore I can not and will not sell anything or make any claims geared towards selling something that I do not myself 100% believe in so I intend to use the scientific method to test orgonite until I myself am fully satisfied before making and posting a single thing for sale on eBay. 

an orgonite sold by Orgone Alchemy

So recently while on eBay I came across a scam using "orgone" as one of the keywords that is unbelievably extensive as to how much effort went into writing this ridiculously long and super pseudo scientifically worded product description that is 100% PURE FICTION claiming that this titanium capsule necklace contains microsphere particals discovered by some supposed scientist and this supposed super lab specializing in homeopathic medicine has obtained a patent on one of Nichola Tesla's inventions and yadda yadda and are selling these things probably mass manufactured in China for pennies for $99 a piece! They did do their research on Wikipedia picking up all sorts of real google-able measurements and terms used in the little known nor understood by the average consumer field of quantum physics so that when you check to see if such terms exist they do though they are incorrectly used in the context of the ad. I'll back my claim there in a moment.* Go ahead and have a look at one of their multiple listings currently up on eBay and now filling up over half the listings that appear in my saved search settings for "orgone."

http://bit.ly/1fMUAl5

Not only that, which you can in fact check for yourself if you look up, read, and comprehend some of those terms on wiki, but they have also gone the appalling extra mile by buying up and registering a bundled pack of web domains and set up a whole slew of webpages and PDF documents where their work of FICTION continues to ramble on more pseudo scientific essays so that if you run a search for one of their FAKE SCIENTIST and other made up factoids or one of the supposedly trademarked names for their supposed "technologies." I've found at least 10 so far to fill up the top 10 results on google that all appear to be penned most likely by the same single super web savy scammer who authored the above eBay listing. I'm not finished with looking into this and I will expose it for what it is to the fullest extent of my capabilities because I love people, believe in healing, and want to live in a world where I can earn an honest living making and selling an authentic product without competing with evil corrupt crafty crooks. Stay tuned!

Tested and proven a scam here: www.dailycommonsense.com/tesla-purple-shield-buy-a-dog-id-for-19999/

**Update: Apparently it is much larger than I originally perceived! I found a thread on a conspiracy theory website forum from as far back as 2008 that started with a member complaining about a Google Ad that was appearing on the site for a Life Technologies Tesla Shield. It's an interesting read because it is quite obvious this Aurum Solis who I myself am personally familiar with from back in the myspace livejournal days.. is either an undercover participant in the discussion or at the very least most certainly found the discussion and USED IT AS MARKETING RESEARCH/ DEVELOPMENT. In the current complicated long product description on eBay as well as text on all the supporting websites such as lifetechologies.org there's specific material lifted off this forum discussion such as one idiot or perhaps "The idiot" suggesting a Caduceus concept for alternating currents or double DNA helix as the possible technology functioning in the Tesla Shield. Now Lifetechnologies claims to have trademarked something stupid sounding with the word Caduceus in it. He has a habit of mentioning familiar legit things in conjunction with other familiar legit things but pushed together is ridiculous if you in fact know what each of them are like Biogeological Accupuncture. Wtf? HAARP reference maybe.. Or Chakra Clearing With Pendulums.. ? That is not what a pendulum is used for whatsoever and to suggest such is like saying you're going to heat up your leftovers with your TV! *I will come back to the reference I neglected earlier where I discovered his use of a unit of measurement used for the distance between two points, extremely small amount of distance granted it's used to measure things on a subatomic level, is confused as a unit of energy or "light waves" and then makes further claims that humans radiate such and such amount of this unit and with use of the Tesla Sheild this "energy" is raised exponentially. I'll return with citation to wiki after I focus on my life awhile.# In the meantime here is the Forum Discussion of This Scam:

http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread273877/pg1

cognitive vs. dissonance circa 2012

Starting to learn cognitive behavior theory. As a thoughtful skeptic I tend to test theories, no matter how or in what context they're given to me, on a variety of different means before applying them to their proposed working model and using them practically.. I was astonished to find how well this practice worked on the big questions surrounding the 2012 end of the Mayan calendar.

Are the Mayans still around to have need of an extension to their calendar? Not so much. If were exterminated before y2k we too would have ended our digital existence then having no need for our bank machines and time cards to accompany us.. How do you imagine they felt back in zero BC/AD? Kidding but you get my drift. It's possible that their calendar ends simply because they had no need of any point of reference that far ahead and they assumed the task could easily be picked up by someone else on down the road or simply cycle back to 1. Indeed the day (12/21/12) does have very much the indication of the zero mark which is far from negative annihilation and way more a renewed potential positive possibilities.. You know, who wants to deal with umpteen digit figures when your scratch pad is made of rock? sheesh....

Lastlight

if only I'd known it was my last I'd maybe done something different or at least breathed in the moment more fully...

It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting don't you think?
To dress the ground in white and grey

It's so quiet I can hear
My thoughts touching every second
That I spent waiting for you
Circumstances affords me
No second chance to tell you
How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
Than a need to remember

We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keep us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still, greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

My beloved do you know
How many times I stared at clouds
Thinking that I saw you there
These are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed as ours

Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
Grant me wings that I might fly
My restless soul is longing
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits

~VNV Nation

Occupy Seattle: Day of 1,000 Umbrellas

Occupy Seattle

This is illegal in Westlake park in Seattle because umbrellas touching the ground constitutes a structure and since no camping is allowed then you're not allowed to have an umbrella structure if it's raining and you're say sitting and waiting for a bus...

Yes, it's utter silliness but somebody has to have fun and not be too serious about every single aspect of the 99% movement especially today, Sat 10/22, since there's a police brutality march happening earlier on.. So need mummery ~ I present to you, yours truly!

I'm claustrophobic..

..but more of people/energy than of objects or confined spaces. Might need a new word for that phobia now because science is finally starting to prove what I've been saying all along feeling crazy. I'm just a little ahead of the pack involuntarily such as I've had undeniable ESP capabilities since I was 6 yo. Anyway here, watch this!

 

lunatic pandemic

more conspiracy something.. won't insult science by using the word "theory" because this is pure lunacy! people will believe anything? it's completely baffles me. it's like they know change is coming or no.. it's like they're ready for a change, a very major change but they haven't realized yet that this change comes from within. they don't grok as above, so below. so they look up and so sincerely expect to see something off or unexpected and they welcome it because they really long for change but aren't willing to change their themselves nor the way they live so they expect some dumb comet, or planet, or mothership to come force them to evolve. can't wait til it's 2013 and everyone calls it y2kpsyche and laughs like they never believed it when the truth is change has come! you just create your own reality so if you're not willing to change you'll never see..

anyway about this video above.. page is full of people's comments about comet elenin (which is about 2-3 miles or kilometers wide max) is causing the moon to wobble or planet niburu is behind it and all that kind of shit. power of suggestion is potent. all of a sudden everyone else seems to recall having noticed it as well. no one mentions the fact that you can't see the ground to orientate your vantage point... yeah, fucking 2 second edit to flip a stupid video 90 degrees! really. easiest hoax in the whole entire known universe! what fools these mortals be